It's weird ... a lot of kind of bad things at once. Bad customers, the kind that don't read the descriptions (at all), and then get mad. And then a few mistakes I've made, like orders that didn't get placed, somehow, and labels I didn't enter properly in the vendor's site. One vendor who screwed up their page and stopped tracking my sales, while another vendor changed their feed so it wouldn't import, and I spent two hours trying to track down the problem. And then, a C&D letter from a very big company ordering me to cease selling several of my most profitable products, by far. All this sort of at once. Am I being sent a message? On top of this, I can't concentrate on or throw myself into work like I used to. I can't program like I used to. I feel kind of useless, and it's harder to concentrate with that maniacal single-mindedness I used to have.

I mean, I felt COMPELLED to work before in a single-minded way that sometimes kind of scared me and wore me out, but now, I feel like I can't really be effective at all. I feel like half or maybe a third of the person I used to be, work wise.

At the same time, I regret the relationships I have avoided forming all this time. I wish I were better at that.